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Why I find books boring.

This statement alone is contradictory as I am an English Literature student, but with the ‘TikTokification’ of reading and overall books have been leading me into a downward spiral of not reading. I don’t remember the last time I picked up a book and felt satisfaction after finishing it, and to me, that is a reflection of the state of books and writing right now. We live in a world where the mass production of tropes and ghost writing have taken over the methodical work that goes into creating a book, and I know that there are amazing writers out there that this does not apply to, but in the age sphere I live in, I hear nothing BUT ‘enemies to lovers’ or ‘golden retriever boyfriend and black cat girlfriend’.

The thing is, I am not a romance hater. When written well, romance is one of my favourite genres to indulge in because it takes me out of a realistic world and helps create this notion of love that not everyone has felt before. My favourite examples of love is through the poetry of the Romantic era, where they don’t particularly speak about a lover but their love for nature and its beauty. The best example I have for this is:

What then I was. The sounding cataract
Haunted me like a passion: the tall rock,
The mountain, and the deep and gloomy wood,
Their colours and their forms, were then to me
An appetite; a feeling and a love,
That had no need of a remoter charm,
By thought supplied, not any interest
Unborrowed from the eye.-That time is past,
And all its aching joys are now no more,
And all its dizzy raptures. Not for this
Faint I, nor mourn nor murmur; other gifts
Have followed; for such loss, I would believe
Abundant recompense. For I have learned
To look on nature, not as in the hour
Of thoughtless youth; but hearing oftentimes
The still sad music of humanity,
Nor harsh nor grating, though the ample power
To chasten and subdue.- and I have felt

When reading this small section of Tintern Abbey by William Wordsworth, I feel this great sense of love and awe for nature. He is able to wish his aches away by looking onto nature for hope it provides wisdom and comfort to him that he is not the only one going through something.

This way of expressing emotions that are unable to be expressed in real life makes books like these feel like the author has sat down and actually thought about it. They are able to convey their thoughts with such beautiful words, I sometimes lose myself when reading it because it doesn’t just become words on a page, it brings it to life.

The opposite can be said when you read modern books that cater towards an audience with a significantly decreased attention span and literacy, all because of the art of ‘doomscrolling’ and spending hours indulging on shortform content. Daily reading rates have dropped by 20% since 2005 and this could be blamed by apps like Instagram and Tiktok that have gained popularity for their addictive scrolling methods. Books no longer cater towards thinkers, but people who wish to gain quick pleasure rather than spend an entire week reading and analysing a book. An argument against this is that people are busier with jobs and thus do not have time for long forms of media but simultaneously have 7-20 hours on fast paced apps. So, in my opinion, being busy is not an excuse to not read or learn something new.

Thus, publishing companies have begun selling stories that are aimed towards smaller attention spans, by using shorter sentences that use less difficult language so that it is understandable quickly. To me, this defeats the whole purpose of reading, as my whole life studying Literature was spent on analysing difficult phrasings and metaphors and by the end of the book/play, I used to feel a great sense of pride for understanding what the author meant, but now, without having to do the thinking myself, I feel lazy and incapable of creating a thought. By telling and not showing, this has created a steady decline in media literacy, as many people who do indulge heavily in shortform content wouldn’t be able to deconstruct a metaphor and understand the meaning behind it. This is not me ridiculing anyone, but just simply pointing out the dramatic effects shortform content has had on media in general, especially when I see it on a day-to-day bases when studying Literature.

An example of this would be:

Madison pulls his suitcase out the back of his Mercedes Benz G-Wagon, my newest purchase, before shrugging on his suit jacket.

-Liz Tomforde, Mile High

The sentence itself probably does not seem like an issue to some, but to me it describes the acts that are occurring instead of letting people infer. Did we need to know that it was their “newest purchase”? NO, we did not need to know that, but instead it’s the author telling us that Zanders had wealth and does not let the reader infer it.

Another example is from a book I have read recently:

This is a marriage of convenience.

-Tessa Dare, The Duchess Deal (Girl Meets Duke #1)

This sentence alone was repeated 7 times and I think it was repeated that way to reiterate the trope that is on display. But did it really need to be repeated that many times, especially past the first chapter where the reader is already coming to an understanding that the marriage is contractual? I think it was not needed after the first 5 chapters but that is my opinion.

The whole reason for this rant/blog is to express my exasperation when it comes to the state of books and writers because I have been unable to read a singular good book that is written in the last 20 years. But maybe it is because I have limited myself into not reading modern books that it has warped my perception of them and has made me think they are all TikTok trash when some could actually be good and hold substance. But when I do read a good book that has been created recently, maybe my perception will change with time and I won’t be so naïve. As for right now though, I personally believe we as a society should step away from the AI generated slop, decentralise greed and money, move from the conventional tropes and genres and create something that feels truly authentic and real, even when it is a nonsensical fantasy book that is set not in this time or any other for that matter. It does not even need to be a completely new idea, I just want a piece of art that gives that characters so much depth and nuance that I feel like I have been transported into their world and genuinely step into their shoes. I want a book that personally changes me, makes me think about myself in a new light and admire the incredible writing of the author without having modern day slang thrown around and used within the book.

Anyway, I know that I am not the only one that thinks this and it’s sad to see that people have become so disinterested in reading but we can help each other by dropping recommendations that do not live in this bubble of mass-produced books.

My current to-read list that I have heard great things about consists of:

Enter Ghost by Isabella Hammad

The Bluest Eye by Toni Morrison

East Of Eden by John Steinbeck

I Who Have Never Known Men by Jacqueline Harpman

Hopefully we can all read them and have an intellectual discussion about them too! My StoryGraph is @whosumaya

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The Other Bennet Sister: The Regency tale that re-ignited my love for historical romance

Introduction

As two F1 races have been cancelled due to the ongoing conflict in the middle East, I have been delving into other forms of media and stumbled upon this BBC show, which featured one of my favourite Orpheus of all time, Donal Finn. This, and the clips I seen on Tiktok encouraged me to watch it and little did I know, this show would occupy my mind for nearly a week. My head is continiously filled with Mr Hayward’s love confessions, Mary’s emotional break down as she confides in her sister and the overall happy ending. So, this post does deviate from the norm, but it is being made because I simply need to get this out of my head and share my thoughts with the general public.

This is a warning for spoilers: Do not read this if you intend to watch The Other Bennet Sister!

Mary + her Family

I have seen many takes on the villianisation of Mrs Bennet. Some have said that it is unnecessary or odd that she is being portrayed this way. But what we need to remember is that this show is told from Mary’s perspective, and that every other portrayal of Mrs Bennet was from Elizabeth’s POV, who is one of the more ‘liked’ children. Mary has always been pushed aside, seen as disposable purely because she is deemed to be less attractive compared to her siblings.

Her relationship with her mother and Elizabeth were the ones that were elaborated on the most. Through her relationship with Lizzie, you can see how Mrs Bennet treated them differently. Mary had experienced the worst of her mother, being used as a maid instead of a daughter because she has been classed as unmarriable. Lizzie never got that treatment. She was never told to stop pursuing someone while her sister was also pursuing Bingley. But Mary had to, because she was told it would hinder her other sister’s prospects. Lizzie, told directly by Mary, believed that they had the same upbringing, but it is nuances like always being put last or being ridiculed about her appearance that sets her experience apart from hers.

Her relationship with her mother purely relies on what society thought beauty was. Her mother’s entire relationship was founded on her beauty, so her ideals naturally align with her experience. Her mother shows her no affection at all, and only seems to care about herself. The direct quote, ‘shame in your behaviour towards me’ perfectly shows that she only thinks of herself in a situation that was emotionally taxing on Mary. She dismisses her and only compliments her when the idea of a suitor is around, further establishing the idea that Mrs Bennet’s entire personality revolves around what society deems as acceptable.

Mary + the Gardiners

They are the parents that she deserved all along. Mrs Gardiner went out of her way to help a crying Mary after her performance. She has consistently been there for her, with her mother, Caroline Bingley and in her decision to not marry. They have both realised the detriment Mrs Bennet has caused to Mary’s perception of herself. They, along with the freedom of being away from her mother, had allowed Mary to flourish within herself, helping her to figure out what she wanted, to be a governess. They let her break free from the bounds of her mother and realised that “happiness is in our own hands”.

Mary + Mr Ryder

First, we need to explain why her and Mr Ryder wouldn’t have worked. His ideas of freedom could only have been performed by men, as their relationships outside of marriage didn’t have the same severity as if women were accused of it. Mr Ryder assumed that Mary held those same views, only because she was well read. However, he never directly asked her this. More so, he was more in love with her difference than with her, and she only seen him as a friend.

The scene where he ‘proposes’ came to a shock to many and even Mary as he described her as a ‘freedom thinker’ which she isn’t. Although Mary doesn’t follow all of societal norms, she still feels obliged to follow some for the sake of her family and mother. She is selfless because she wanted to accept but realised her position in society. Mr Ryder dismissed this restriction, which makes them incompatible in my eyes, as he created a version of Mary in his head that doesn’t exist.

Mary + Tom Hayward

Tom and Mary have a shared understanding when it comes to not fitting in. Hayward worked his way up, in a society that valued generational wealth over a working man. Mary didn’t fit into the beauty standards her sisters fit into, leading to her to be labelled as the ‘Ugly Sister’ early on, especially after she started wearing glasses. They are both nerds about their specific stuff, Mary with geology and Tom with poetry. This makes the dynamic more wholesome, as they both are deeply interested in their respective things and often share their interests with each other. Mary appreciated this about Hayward, and his kindness towards her, especially when he noticed that she was feeling particularly sad after receiving the letter from her mother.

Hayward took some time figuring out his feelings, which was amazing to witness as his longing stares and lingering touches became the highlight of the show. He yearned and yearned, even when he didn’t notice his feelings towards her yet. Ryder’s involvement made him realise his love for her, confessing in his subtle ways of poetry and touches that he is infatuated with her. He sees Mary for Mary and doesn’t create this superficial version of her in his head, instead, admiring her bluntness and quick-wittedness instead of her ideals and views on society.

Now, although I believe that they are best suited for each other, I do have one issue, and that is miscommunication. Tom’s inability to communicate his insecurities regarding his financial situation seems to hinder his ongoing pursuit of Mary. Assuming that he isn’t meant for her is silly, especially when he should know that she doesn’t care about superficial matters like financial security. His concerns are valid, but could have been voiced earlier on, since she rejected Ryder although he had money for Italy and chose him instead.

I love nothing more than a heartfelt confession and every time they spoke, it felt like endless words of love. The tension between them was naturally high, and didn’t need any intimate scene to depict their obvious longing for each other. His cry during her confession was so impactful and I’m glad they got their happy ending.

The quote ‘in my best interest’ was the only time I agreed with violence and I’m glad she beat him up because he is being so silly.

Mary

The growth and self-reflection depicted was insanely well written and acted, especially when you watch how her wardrobe gradually becomes lighter and more vibrant as she continues to find herself away from home. She learnt to create her own happiness, firstly in finding a family that truly loved her for who she is, and afterwards, finding the love of her life as well, all in her pacing. Mary is an inspiration to all young women who feel degraded in their lives, compared to others although they are different creatures.

The message of the story isn’t plainly about love, it is about finding your true self, whether it was found through the people around you, or through a simple move away from the place that kept you caged in.

The end❤︎⁠

4 responses to “The Other Bennet Sister: The Regency tale that re-ignited my love for historical romance”

  1. oknaima Avatar
    oknaima

    will there be more non-f1 related works considering you made a whole category for it???

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    1. sumaya ali Avatar

      depends on how bored i get

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  2. mindfully2750e7c2a2 Avatar
    mindfully2750e7c2a2

    ooooohhh something different, I likeyyy

    do bridgerton

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